This whole grief and widow thing is new to me. As I stated in some of my previous writings I NEVER wanted to be in this position. Sometimes it gets really tuff to stay positive and smile. You know, I did everything right.
Thanksgiving is next week and I have so much to be thankful for. These last 16 months have been challenging. Trying to keep things as normal as possible even though my world has been turned upside down. I have realized it’s not only how you react to what has happened to you but also who you surround yourself with.
Today would have been my 25th wedding anniversary. I feel jipped in so many ways!!! I didn’t ask to be here. I didn’t request to be a widow. As a matter of fact, I played by all of the rules, love honor and cherish, especially the “in sickness and in health” line. I loved my husband more than words can ever say.
Earlier this year I attended a high school concert that my son was in. While we were waiting for the event to start, I struck up a conversation with one of the moms that I had met during tennis season earlier this year. We chatted about the boy’s success with their school year and about how much we missed tennis and the families that were involved.
Last month we performed a makeover at Tony Sacco’s in Mishawaka, Indiana. Michael had an early meeting, so I dropped him off and went to work on some of my writing material.