The Show Must Go On!
This past Monday marked the 6 week anniversary of Michael’s passing. It truly is a minute by minute these days, one minute I’m ok and the next minute I am not. Each day we try instill a little bit of normalcy. I knew that this trip to New York was coming up was going to be a difficult one. I looked to find all of the courage that I have left inside of me to make this trip happen. I wanted to give to the salon everything that I had so that they would be successful with our salon affiliate program.
I cannot even begin to tell you the mixture of emotions that I had traveling to New York to open our 1st affiliate there. I was fearful of leaving Seth for the 1st time as a single parent and at the same time there was a bit of joy that we were going to expand the dream that has been placed in my heart but has now become Michael’s Legacy.
It had been awhile since I had certified a salon but it was truly just like riding a bike. The words flowed easily and the knowledge was shared with a very giving team that is excited to share their gifts and talents with a woman battling cancer. It wasn’t until the very end of the certification that my tears flowed as I explained to them the loss of Michael and the crater that he has left in our lives.
The next day our Gorgeous! Woman arrived and was very deserving of a day of pampering. As I watched everything come together I saw the light that was dimmed inside of her become brighter and shine like I imagine it hadn’t done in a very long time.
Once again, I teared up knowing that THIS was Michael’s favorite part of what we do. Nothing made him happier than watching this transformation take place. He loved to watch the “real” smile emerge that came from pure joy of her feeling normal. I remember him not wanted to see her until her transformation was complete. He wanted to experience the magic of her before and after.
My heart hurt yesterday not being able to text him the before and after picture as I did so many times. I missed hearing him call me after the makeover and say “You did a good job Kimmer!”
But I am at peace knowing that he is with us watching over us and now watching over this salon affiliate team in Baldwinsville and our newest Gorgeous! Woman.
Every night I write a letter to Michael to tell him about the events of our day. I started the letter out with “You would have been so proud of me today.” And I could hear him say ” I am always proud of you.”
The Show must go on because that is truly what Michael would have wanted.